Blood Brothers Part 2

I woke up in a soft bed, curled up in soft blankets. I went to turn over but was stopped. I was being constricted by something. It was my dad's arms. He was holding me, something he hadn't been able to do in a long time. *subject pauses to take a drink of water* I tried speaking, but nothing came out no matter how hard I tried.
    "shh… Its ok. You really beat yourself up Ryan…" I whimpered softly and nodded. I felt like a small child again, and began to cry as the memories came flooding in. "Shh Ryan… I know it hurts…" I wasn't sure if he meant my wounds or my emotions, but either way I felt comforted by what he said. He held me for a long time until I finally calmed down. "Dad I… How did this happen… Something's wrong…" My dad shook his head a little, "I'm sorry Ryan. We have just about as much control as you do. We have to follow the omens and signs we are given."
    Although he was comforting me, I had the sudden urge to push him away, luckily my muscles couldn't move, so I just had to sit there and grit my teeth. Zach came in with food, that I refused to eat, which upset my dad a lot. "
     "Ryan its been 4 days since the blood sharing night, and I don't even know if you ate that night. Please eat buddy." *subjects voice becomes tight again* He called me buddy… Another thing he hadn't been able to do in a long time. With those heart melting words, I obliged and ate some toast and bacon.
     "Tommy will be my blood brother…. I don't know how. But I'm gonna find a way." Zach shook his head and sneered, "Ryan there is no way for you to-" "This doesn't concern you Zach. I suggest you leave." I had never heard such hostility and anger in my dads voice before, and Zach left without another word.
  "He is right though Ryan… Please don't do this. You'll find somebody else. This is what needs to happen. Please don't do this. You what will happen if things go wrong."
    I knew quite well. The pack would be split up, if the bloodline of my dad wasn't alpha, then we could no longer be a pack. I don't know why, but its just how the rules were. That didn't matter. I didn't want anybody else but my Tommy, and I was determined to make him mine.
    
I'm taking this headset off now. I'm about to pass out. Goodnight. *subject proceeds to take off the headset, and lay down in his bed*